心情很重....

心里真的很想念她... 忘不了她... 不知道该怎样办... 很想大声的跟她说"我喜欢你, 可以当我女朋友吗?" 这句话... 看起来是个很简单的话但是并不是... 因为, 说了这个话可能会影响到她的心情... 所以,我不说.. 只好自己一个人的在受苦... 希望我能承受这个苦吧..  心里只能希望她每天快乐的在笑和祝福她人也找到她自己的幸福...

心很难受...

我的心和脑海里一直得想着她... 不知道该怎样办.... 人真的很辛苦.. 很想知道她在忙什么... 为什么我会变成这样呢? 人真的很不正常... 很想把这个心情放下... 但是很难做到... 希望我能做到吧... 我不想伤害到她的心.. 也不想弄到她不开心...

睡不着...

很累... 很想睡... 但是, 我睡不着... 心一直在想她... 不知道怎样才能完全忘了她... 心真的很苦很痛... 为什么我会爱上她呢? 我真的不明白... 应该坦白的告诉她我喜欢她吗? 她人都不理我了... 心真的很烦... 不知道怎样办... 爱情真的很烦的事.......

慢慢得忘和放弃她...

今天, 我跟我的好朋友的女朋友第一次聊天... 聊了聊就聊到我喜欢的那个女孩... 我觉得我朋友的女朋友讲的话是对的.... 我应该慢慢的忘了她吧... 不然, 我只会伤害到我的心而已... 她既然不想回答我的信息了... 我看我也没必要再找她了吧... 只好努力的把她当成以为普通的朋友而已... 心里慢慢的把她放下吧... 我也不回去找她了... 她想劈开我还是她自己是真的在忙她的东西... 我也不想在知道了... 因为, 当她有事情需要帮忙的时候, 她才会想起我... 这个令我感觉到她在利用我而已... 对... 有时她会很关心的我... 但是, 有时她一点都不睬我... 就算是朋友, 也要告诉人一声她不想人吵她...而,不是一声什么都没说就不理人家...真的不知道她的心里在想什么... 有时,我很想打个电话问她是不是在逃避我.. 但是, 我觉得不用吧... 我又不是她的男朋友...只是一个朋友... 

应该只是一个朋友而已吧...

怎样给她信息, 她也不理我.. 不知道怎样办... 想打给她问他有什么问题吗... 但是,我没有那么勇气去做... 我不知道在她眼里是一个好朋友或者普通朋友或者是一个道具??? 我其实跟她有什么关系呢? 假如是朋友,她就不应该超越过朋友的关系和关心... 我已经尽量不要爱上她了.. 但是, 我也做不到... 心里一直的在想她.. 很辛苦.. 很难把她忘了和放下... 很想跟她不只是一个当当是朋友而已... 很想她成为我的女朋友... 但是, 这只是我一个梦想而已吧... 不可能会实现的梦想... haiz....

该忘了她吗?

我心在想,我改不该忘了她呢? 对,我心很喜欢她, 很想她当我的女朋友...但是,她人好像对我没兴趣... msn她,sms 她 或者skype 她, 她都不理我... 朋友讲我想太多了... 我真的想太多了吗? 还是,这是她的性格? 我不知道.. 我真的不知道...

跟我的朋友讲这件事情... 他们有些对我说, 我应该忘了她吧, 因为世界还有其他的女子... 不值得花我的时间在她的身上...而, 有些说等多一下才决定假如你真心的喜欢她的话... 但是,我不知道要怎样去做... 心里很乱.. 想不通... 不知道该怎样办... 谁能告诉我啊???

Sigh..

Is being a day i didn't chat with her.. Trying to get her off my mind... Yet it seem like I becoming more into her.. Miss her a lot.. Yet cannot do anything.... Wondering what is she doing now.... Well.. I can't do anything also if she does not want to chat with me even I message her or anything... I begin to wondering is she the one for me?  or is there still have others in the big ocean... Maybe I should let her go? But my friends told me.. Don't let her go yet.. Just wait and see what gonna happen.. I guess I wait and see what gonna happen...

Why fell in love?

Why I will fell in love?  I never thought of felling in love with any person but yet I fell in love with this particular girl who give me a lot of problems.  She not as pretty as other people, her attitude are not that good too compare to other girl that I met so far.  Yet, why she able to make my heart beat so fast... I doesn't know what to do or how to get rid of this feeling towards her... I feels like an idiot that I fell in love with her.. There are many thousands or millions of girls out there yet I fells for this particular girl... She doesn't really reply to my message or care about my feelings or even understand me... We was suppose to be just a best friend.. Yet is it me or her that cross the line between this friendship line?  Why did it had to be like this? I keep quiet on my feeling towards her because I do not want to lost a friend like her as she is a good friend of mine.

 But now, I don't know what should I do? Who are able to tell me or guide me out of this miserable... Someone please help me... I feels really useless now...  I wanna tell her that I had fell in love with her.. but yet I unable to do it.. First, she may still in a relationship or that she only threat me as a close friend/brother and she doesn't have any feeling towards me.  Second, she may already have a person that she has like also... I don't wanna hurt her heart.. but I am now feels very suffering... I wish to quickly get over this feeling of mine and move on as i am not able to do anything at all now...... Sigh....

Confuse.....

I got a friend that threat me really well that till advicing me in changing my attitude.. However, I doesn't understand her why she willing go as far as a friend to advice me? Is she want to be more than just friend? I doesn't know.. Even I message her in text, msn, or even fb chats, she just ignore me... I does not know what she have in her mind... It just making me confuse.. Sigh...