Wondering....

I begin to wonder myself or doubt on myself on proving to my parent... Why they cannot support me on what I want to do? They always said I cannot... This lack of support from my parent is really suffer... Anyway, I still not sure what kind of job that I want to look into... I got my dream job... but my mom keep discourage me in pursuit it... I not sure how... God please guide me in for a job that satisfy me this is only what I want and give me courage for continue my life....

A New Beginning for Every Ending

My study life is just ended on yesterday when I saw my result...  Yes, I do feels happy for a little moment but it is only for awhile. I do not know why I would feel sad... I sure be happy because I got a great result and also getting First Class Honour in my degree... Yet I'm not that happy.. Deep down in my heart I feels sad and wanted to cry out loud.  But I'm unable to do it.

Study Life is ended and a new working life is awaiting ahead of me for me to take the challenge and success in it also.  But I do not have the strength to face it.  What should I do now? How am I going to get the strength to overcome it? I do not know. During my school time, it is my HOP and lecturers as well as my friends that support me that pull me from the dark tunnel that I fell into it.. But now? I wonder who will be the one who will do it for the sake of myself? I do not know that. But I do know one thing everything will be fine.

At here I also wanted to express my gratitude towards my friends and lecturers that support me when I need it the most.  The one I really owed my gratitude to is Ms Yee.  She is the best lecturer that I ever had that I will never forget on her.  She the reason that I am able to finish my study today.  I remember the first time when I enter degree and wanted to give up on it because I am not able to perform well, I was cried in front of her.  That moment changed me.. From then onwards, I slowly learn from her how to be a happy person... She always listen to me and be there for me when I needed someone the most.. Thus, she more like a sister to me comparing to a lecturer or a head of programme.  Mr Eric is also another person that I owed to him as I always submit late for his assignments and projects.  He had never scold me but give me encouragement for me in chasing my dream and become a better person.  So does Ms Leow.  I owe them way too much until I do not know how to repay them. Other than them, I also like to thanks to my dear friend Ying Ying though currently she is the one I am avoiding with but if that time she didn't help me realize something I wouldn't be able to success.  I will always remember this friend who always cause trouble to me in her study and always misunderstood me.... I glad that I meet her... I pray that she will become a successful person in the future and more mature compare to me.

There are too many friends that I would like to thank to such as Kikky, QinLe, KeeYap, John, Mandy and others which the lists will goes on and on.  I could only said Thank You and hope you all will be success in your dreams.

Final Year Project & Misc...

Final Year Project.... Final Year Project... Final Year Project.... Since the beginning of this semester, I lost myself and begin trying to score As in my two subjects that I taking in this Final Semester.  However, that is not the case, I do not care about the grades that I get in my semester but rather the experiences that I obtain during the progress of learning.  Still got left 7 days to go... I wonder will I able to finish it on time? In my opinion maybe YES or maybe NO... but till the very end I will not give up....

Also, I received two small gifts from my lecturer cause I help her in her crucial moments.  Yet, usually I never expect people to repay me for what I helping them... But she give me two small gifts as a token of appreciates for my help towards her.  This make me very happy... Maybe because it make me feels that helping people still is worthy in this selfish generation as recently I feels that people begin not to appreciate my help~~

My friends Mandy and Usman the exchange students from Bradford return to UK for almost a week already... And I beginning to miss them >"< A bit sad and regret that I was not able to hang out with them for when they came to Malaysia... Was hoping to bring them around Malaysia but then too busy with my own works... When they do come to Malaysia for a trip or something, I definitely will bring them around to see Malaysia... Well.. I hope to see them both soon!!

P/S: Mandy if you do reading my post, I wishes you that you enjoying yourself in your home and good luck in your new semester in one month time!!! All the best to you and dont forget us at Malaysia ^^|||

Big Brother

Suddenly, I feel that I like a "Big Brother" to almost all my friend.  When they all encounter problem, first person is me and when some of them got personal problem and like to have a talk with people, they would find me first.  Well, I don't think myself as a "Big Brother".  I wonder am I really is a "Big Brother" to my friends?

About this Blog

Hi, this blog will be my personal blog on my life and the people that I met as well as about them.  I not a blogger but this is to serve as a way to release my depression and frustration that I have being experience throughout my life.